STOP CHASING

I know how to chase.

A goal. An answer. A person. A possibility. Clarity.

Especially clarity.

There is something deeply comforting about believing that if I work hard enough, think long enough or ask the right question one more time, I can force life to reveal what happens next.

I like knowing. I like movement. I like resolution.

Surrender has never come quite as naturally.

Because surrender can feel like doing nothing.

And doing nothing can feel dangerously close to losing control.

But I'm beginning to see it differently.

Surrender isn't apathy. It isn't weakness. It isn't pretending not to care.

Sometimes surrender is caring deeply and refusing to destroy your peace trying to control the outcome.

There are things I have chased long past the point where chasing felt good.

Answers that were not ready. People who had already shown me what they were capable of giving. Outcomes I thought I needed. Versions of life I had convinced myself were the only acceptable ones.

And I wonder how much energy I've spent knocking on doors that required me to become smaller just to walk through them.

Lately I'm practicing something different.

I do what is mine to do.

And then I loosen my grip.

I send the message. Make the decision. Tell the truth. Show up.

And leave a little room for life to answer back.

That's the part I used to forget.

Life gets a vote too.

There is an unexpected freedom in not pursuing everything that moves away from you.

Some things need space. Some things need time. Some things need to leave.

And sometimes the most powerful move available to you is to stop chasing long enough to see what remains.